- me: *sniffs air*
- me: ah september
- me: the time where bugs die
- me: tv shows gradually return from hiatus
- me: green day slowly emerges from their hibernation, thirsting for blood
"You knew I was fragile, but you fucking dropped me anyway."
I’ve been losing blood at triple the normal rate. I’ve woken up three times tonight. I literally only want chocolate and to cry. Then if I could just cease to exist that would be extremely pleasant.
I’m so tired of tv shows and movies showing rapists and creeps as being the typical “Tough” guys like bikers, punks, and metal heads. I have literally never been harassed by guys like that. Ever. In fact on more than one occasion I’ve had a biker, or a punk walk up and ask me if I was okay while Johnny White-Frat-Boy followed me around and tried to corner me.
Up at 4AM, at the gym by 5, three class 8:30-2, work 3-8. Woo
"The moment there is suspicion about a person’s motives, everything he does becomes tainted."
I think I’m going to write a book called “‘Four Hours Is Definitely Enough Sleep’ And Other Lies I Tell Myself”
I’m getting caught up in my head again. The funeral is tomorrow.
If you read this…
If you read this, you survived! You survived the days of fear, anger, despair, pain, tears, hopeless thoughts. I want you to know that you are strong. You’ re not weak, even if you think you are. You’re not. Otherwise you wouldn’t be here. You survived. You kept fighting. You lived. You are brave. Say that to yourself: I am brave. I survived. Im still here, living. You deserve everything. Youre precious. And you are strong. Have a wonderful day!